Saying Enough is Enough…

Enough being only an option to all of his priorities.
Enough talk with no actions ever taken.
Enough of the superficial conversation and fake interest in your world.
Enough listening to him wax about how bad his marriage is yet he stays put.
Enough being his sounding board because he “claims” he isn’t appreciated at home.
Enough looking the other way from the things that make you uncomfortable.
Enough throwing your integrity down the toilet.
Enough of feeding his big fat ego
Enough of letting him have his cake and eating it too
Enough of giving your love to someone that really doesn’t care about you or love you, just pretends he does
Enough of letting the ball be totally in his court, meaning it is on his terms when he will be able to see you or call you and you being a jerk and waiting for that phone to ring.
Enough of falling for all his lies and stories of being so miserable at home. He is perfectly fine at home and liked things just the way they were with being able to have you on the side, when it suited him.
Enough of being his dirty little secret.
Enough of wasting your time in a dead end situation that is never going to change for the better.
Enough of having to deal with the constant anxious feelings and that constant longing for someone that will never be yours, but will be happy to feed your head with all the right words to keep stringing you along.
Enough of living a lie.
Enough of making him a priority (when you are his option).
Enough of obsessing over every word and analyzing every conversation when he can’t take the time to respond to one lousy email.
Enough of accepting the fact that he is “busier” than you.
Enough of pretending your feelings aren’t all wrapped up in this.
Enough of hoping his feelings are as wrapped up in this as yours.
Enough of checking email, texts, looking at the clock, wondering where he is/what he is doing, waiting for him to “sign on”….
Enough wasting my time on someone who is emotionally unavailable.
Enough of letting his actions dictate my choices.
Enough passiveness….I’m in charge of my life…I get to choose!!!
Enough of engaging in emotional suicide.
Enough living 1/2 a life while he lives a life and a 1/2.
Enough eating crumbs when I can have a full course meal.
Enough disrespecting myself.
Enough of his renting free space in my head.
Enough being weak and selfish.
Enough hurting innocent people that love and trust me.
Enough being a person I never EVER thought I would be.
Enough being the complete opposite of a whole person.
Meaning, enough defining my life according to a single aspect of unreality.

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